J stands for JERK

Maybe it's time for me to post some stuff out to make myself feel better :D

Looking at all my messages, i agreed with my dearest girl. She told me i've changed. Indeed i did ever since i broke up with J. Rumours all around me. I choose not to post anything about it because i don't think there isn't any need to. I don't own people a living. I live for myself. Why should i be bother about what you guys think about me. But as time flies, it actually affects part of my life.

Yes, i'm being a bitch to tell people who is around why we broke up. I'm a slut to you, to your friends. But everything i said, is true! I didn't create any fairytale. I remembered i once post before, i am not gonna tell anyone why i choose to end this relationship. Maybe i shall pour out everything now.

Look at here clearly people!

I once dream about how far can my relationship goes with J. He broke it up into pieces with his own hands. For once, for twice, for thrice, you made the same old mistake. Touch your heart and asked yourself, when you were with me, how many other girls you are together with? Hugging me at this moment, at another moment you hugged another girl. Are you gonna tell everyone : OH NO! ALL THESE IS BULLSHIT! YINGXUAN HAS FALL FOR THAT GIRL TRAP! Wow. Then why did you admit to me you've timer me before? Haha. I still have the conversation about us.

Maybe like what many said, people do make mistake, none is perfect. But mistake is done once, not repeating it again & again. I forgiven you for so many times but you took me granted. Worst of all, when you can't get me back, you spread around telling people i'm a plk. Cool! Because i made your title dropped by telling friends you timer me. If you dare to do it, why don't dare to admit?

Posting out all these is not for people to pity me or what. I don't fucking need it at ALL ! I still live my life well now :D What's wrong to have more boyfriends than girlfriends? I always hang out with guys? Why? Does it affects you? Not at all my dear. Why doesn't you always talk about the same things whenever YOU talked to ME in msn? Do you've any rights to say anything about me now. Fucking not at all.

Still wondering why the hell would you have the cheeks to tell your girlfriend about the story of us. Ohhhhh! I almost forgotten. Because he said i'm a slut to leave him, to be together with another guy, and end up wanna get back to him. WOW WOW! Look at how thick skinned can this person get? I believe his girlfriend read my blog too. I've never think of getting back to him. I'll never get back to such a lousy person. You can keep it yourself (: It's your choice to believe his fairytale. I can't do anything too! I wouldn't be the person in the losing end. Before i forget, J came talking to me in msn, asking if we are still friends? So if the post on his girlfriend's blog was talking about me, very sorry, your bf wanted to make friend with me. So i should entertain him & treat him like a friend of mine too :D

Wohoo, probably tomorrow or a few days later, i'll get some rumours again. I'm used to it. I can't stop anyone to dislike me or what. As long as i know what i'm doing, it's okay. I won't drop one meat out and die. Hahahaa!

I like & enjoy my life now. I've great friends around to be there for me. And of course, a nice & supportive parents to be there for me when i need someone to talk to.

J is you. J is for Jerk. AND THAT'S YOU !
Karma will come to you soon